Eight Second Ride

It's pretty cliché to say "Let It Go" now because that's to a character that doesn't actually doesn't let go of her past but learns to accept it and face it. And that's what I am about to do. Facing this is one the biggest thing I have ever done. My life I have a feeling is going to be an eight second ride...

This girl is growing up finally. Does that change me? Sure! As my cousin loves to tell people, "If you have never changed in your life then you live a pretty dull, lonely life." People don't like change because so much is changing around them. I have been one of those people for too long. I have loved the normal and the safe. I push limits where I know that family will reel me in if I need it.

Did you hear that?--- That's the sound of me shutting the door to that part of my life. I am tired of listening to the complainers and the Debbie Downers. I am making me who I want to be! I will probably be more covered up in the future. Maybe, I am finally becoming a classy Southern girl with her pearls not found on her ankle the next morning.

Being single again kind of scares me but at the same time it empowers me. I am not daddy's little girl anymore. My attitude has changed toward life. I made decisions and people made decisions. We all have our faults. Will I make more decisions that are bad? Oh yeah because I am human.

One mistake I am not making anymore? Letting others control me, that is the girl is gone. I am embracing where I am from and the stock that I come from even if that's a tiny town that people think is a town. The land where a tide can roll and an eagle can be all about war. Also the colors auburn and crimson mean something like religion in my neck of the woods.

I have recently started talking to a guy that isn't from Alabama-- That's a first. I have dated from different ethnicities but this is a first. This guy isn't from my country at all so me being so country strikes him big time. He has his idioms and I have mine. Trust me, fixin' to is something I had never really given any thought about until he asked me what did I have to fix.

So I am starting out with something really new. Could this be the biggest mistake of my life? Sure, but will I regret it? Nope. Not one bit, because I am proud of who I was and who I am. Don't like it? Well let's just say this girl knows how to load more than her dishwater and her laundry. I have been able to shoot since the age of three.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 30: Who I Was, Am and Will Be

Minus the resume and cover letter and how to vote.

Dear Crazy wild and stubborn,

You did decent. You probably shouldn't have stole that car but hey you didn't get caught. Good job on turning down the drugs. Don't worry about the beating the heart took it was just a few punches trust me in a few years it's going to be stomped on. 

That hairdo though... yeahhhhh you looked like a dude at times. Not cool. From now on lets keep it long and soft. The rest of it we did good. Okay and be really glad we ignored mom. She wasn't worth a damn anyhow.

Dear even more wild and crazy but less stubborn,

I don't hate you. Yeah you screw up but that's life. You can't have everything your way and thank you for finally realizing that. It makes us a lot happier. Thank you for finally settling down with a good guy with a good job that you KNOW will treat you right.

You look awesome in those jeans stop flipping out at the size of your butt. Get up and do more stair exercise and it may not jiggle as much then and atleast be more firm. 

Dear hopefully less wild and crazy but more stubborn,

You did it! You had kids with that Edwin dude! You look gorgeous, early wrinkles and all. You look hot mama. You handle everything well. You make getting old look good. Just stay naked!!!

Fresh Start Challenge Day 25: XOXO

Dear Hunter,

You've been my twin for forever! We might be born a month apart but we are joined as twins. From us using each other as a stepping stool to get out of places our parents put us. To us determined we looked good with crazy line hair. To running like morons through the sunflowers. To hiding in the woods. To hunting. To trying to knock each other off the porch. To getting arrested together. To getting each other home when we are drunk off our ass. Thank you for the impact of love and support.


Dear Daddy,

To the man who gave me life. Who put a gun in my hands at three. Who put a shot glass in my hand at 13. To the man who took me to my first Alabama football game at two years old. You taught me to stand up for myself. And you also spoiled me rotten. You helped me realize that I am important and to go after what I want. Not just expect it to be dropped in my lap. I do wish you had pushed the whole cleaning thing but that's okay. Edwin is good at cleaning. I love you and treasure you as my father.


Dear Grandma,

The only one who agreed with me and Hunter when we said our mothers sucked! You are still so freaking dang awesome. The only to completely bash the mothers with us. Spoil us rotten and yet make us grateful for the things we have. You have always cheer me up and help me through things.


Dear Lillian,

We have hung out on and off all of our lives. We spent countless summers stuck in a tent at festivals together. We weren't always that close but we did laugh a lot. I am glad that finally changed. You have become such a close friend to me as well as cousin. I can't imagine what my life would be without you. You have given many different chances to grow and learn more and more. Thank you so much for becoming closer to me.


Dear Edwin,

Yup I saved you for last. It's hard to write something to someone when you want to spend forever writing it. I just can't believe what an amazing man you have become. You were always amazing as a friend and accomplice but you stand on your own feet now even if you no reason for standing up. You are so courageous and yet such a wuss at the same time. I love you to death and we have forever!

Fresh Start Challenge Day 20: Photos Say A Million Words

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Fresh Start Challenge Day 13: Male Version

What's up? I'm Edwin. The guy that is nuts enough to date Carolina. And even more nuts to be friends with her and Hunter all of their lives. I say theirs because I am two years older than them. Doesn't stop from me being the one to be tormented.

Anyhow the perfect date is dancing in the field with a bonfire with the tailgate down. Luke Bryan and them are onto something.

Sure you can call being crammed in a club with a bunch stranger fun. But you want a fun time, drop the tailgate down and light the pile of limbs on fire.

You spend the day mudding and then putting that in the bed of the truck and then blowing smoke down the dirt road while she hangs her feet out the window while singing and laughing while she tickles your side causing you almost to wreck.

Run your fingers through those strands of silk, give her kisses that are sweeter than Tupelo Honey and dance all night long.

-Edwin

Fresh Start Challenge Day 13: Unconventional Kind Of Girl

Date time!

At home???? Go muddin', mud war, mud wrestling and then running wild. Finishing up the evening sitting on the porch making homemade ice cream and swinging on the swing with mosquito lit mason jar candles.


Trip Date (US): Nashville date. Bars, country music everywhere, plus so much to do and shop there.


International dates: Giethoorn in Holland is on my list to visit.


But just dancing in the moonlight and eating is fine with me anytime.